(If you’re new to mold avoidance and you only read one thing from me, I suggest you read this. If you like it, go ahead and check out my podcast.)
This is something I’ve been trying to find words for, but never quite succeeded. I think maybe I will give it another shot.
One of the biggest objections to mold avoidance is how “weird” it is. But to me, this actually ended up being a huge revelation.
See, the sheer oddity of having such dramatic and erratic experiences during early avoidance, was one of the things that convinced me that mold avoidance is a “real discovery” vs. some money-making nonsense like the rest of alternative medicine.
I figured that if a $10,000 alternative medicine clinic couldn’t elicit even 5% of the dramatic physiological changes that a simple change in location can (combined with the necessary leaving behind of contaminated belongings), then there must be something about mold avoidance that is worth really checking out.
So every time we had some weird toxin experience due to unmasking, or other kind of mold avoidance oddity, or spontaneous LEAP forward in healing…even though in the moment it was confusing and new, in the back of my mind I was always feeling indescribable intellectual relief…. “FINALLY a working model that explains the hell I’ve been living, rather than empty promises from supplement companies.”
During mold avoidance one of the most oft-repeated thoughts that kept recycling in my head was, “you can’t make this stuff up.”
Conversely, during my years wasting money on “treatments,” the only possible hope was precisely to “make stuff up”…. to desperately suggest to myself that these random supplements or treatments were SOMEHOW working, that the little sensations they caused were SOMEHOW what my body needed to heal, but all the while deep down knowing that they weren’t doing shit.
I’m quite certain that EVERYONE reading this can relate perfectly. Because you’ve ALL experienced that. You go to a fancy doctor, spend $600 for a 30 minute appointment, walk out with a bunch of supplement bottles…but a week later you are left to DESPERATELY try to “talk yourself into” the idea that the stuff is “somehow helping.”
“maybe it just takes longer to work.”
“maybe I’m getting better but my attitude is bad.”
“maybe I have to wait til the second phase of treatment to feel better.”
“maybe even though I’m taking 192 supplements, my mixture isn’t quite right”
That’s why the DRAMATIC and INSANE experiences and physiological changes, and deep relief, from something as inert and uninteresting as wearing a clean shirt and sleeping in a “clean location,” was so interesting to me.
Smart people will hone in on this clue as the inkling of a REAL SCIENTIFIC DISCOVERY, rather than a massive shit-show of confirmation bias, profit-seeking, and “hopium” that is found in most of alternative medicine.
And then of course the more you follow the clue and pursue mold avoidance, the more clear it becomes that the whole process is working automatically, outside of one’s own sphere of control, outside of one’s own “let everyone’s opinion matter” hooey (that never led to the recovery of super-sick people anyway)…that a person is not “manifesting” their destiny but rather is kind of just riding a wild and independent healing train down the mountainside, hanging on for dear life.
Which of course is the kind of healing we all crave, dream about, wish for. You always read those stories of someone who had a horrible health problem and found the solution and was blown away. I had a friend who was very sickly and nothing was working and they finally discovered they were celiac. BOOM, out of the blue, they just magically recovered. No burning incense, no supplements, no drama, no “manifestation,” no modern “live and let live be tolerant to everyone’s self-invented medical opinions”, no “anything goes”, no “alternative medicine.” Just a clue, and boom, a recovery. An objective scientific physiological recovery. In some ways, quite boring. One and done. A singular point of weakness in the physiology detected, and solved.
That kind of recovery is something I NEVER experienced before mold avoidance. I had only ever experienced my own willpower, “willing” this or that treatment to “maybe help and somehow work out in the long term.” On a slow downhill trudge toward disability that I was only willing to acknowledge when the grave was just a footstep away.
So there you go. Me, finally trying to articulate this mold avoidance experience.
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